Tuesday, July 30, 2024

A morning errand

The boy looked up from his book and saw his grandfather sitting in the long chair, listening to one of his neighbours. The man spoke in a low voice and the boy could not hear anything he said. His grandfather's expression seemed grave, and he realized that his grandfather was angry. Soon, his grandfather raised his hand and said loudly "Enough! I don't want to hear about it anymore. For the past few years these fellows have not taken care of things. Now it has hit a rock bottom. I don't think even God can fix that place. I am sure God cannot reside in a place that is run so badly. That temple has lost its sanctity. I will not go there anymore." The neighbour seemed disturbed when he heard this. He asked "But then where will you go? How can you live without going to the temple every day?" The grandfather responded "I did not say that I will not go to the temple every day. I will go to the other temple." The neighbour asked, "Which one?" The grandfather mentioned the name of the temple. The neighbour seemed shocked. "But that is more than two miles away!" "So? You think I cannot walk for two miles every day?" The neighbour corrected "Its more than four miles to go and come back." The grandfather irritation increased "Ok, ok! Four miles. I can walk for four or five or even six miles every day. I can walk 10 miles every day. As a matter of fact, I can even walk 20 miles every day. I will not go to that temple ever and if that I mean I have to walk a hundred miles every day, I will do so. But I will never ever step into that temple again." The boy had forgotten about the book. He listened to the conversation keenly. He liked reading books, but he liked listening to conversations even better. But he was not happy to see his grandfather angry. He closed his book and went inside the house. 

The next morning, as the boy was preparing to go for school, he heard his grandfather calling his name. When he reached his grandfather, he asked the boy to go a place not far from his home. The boy said "Ok" and stood looking at his grandfather. His grandfather too looked at him without saying anything. After a few seconds the grandfather said "Don’t you want to know why you are going there?” The boy responded “Yes”. 
“Then why did you not ask?” 
“I thought you will tell me. I was waiting for you to tell me.”

The grandfather laughed and said “Always ask for information when you don’t know something. Do not wait for others to tell you. It does not matter who the person is, if you don’t have all the information you require, ask. Do you understand?” The boy responded “Yes” and then asked, “Why am I going there?” Once again grandfather laughed and said “You are a quick learner. I want you to get the prasadam from the temple there.” The boy shook his head but did not leave. The grandfather asked, “Are you worried about your school?” The boy shook his head in agreement. “I have already talked to your master. I told him that you will reach the school an hour late. So, its ok.” The boy thought “So, first period is gone. Today’s Tuesday. Its history, super!” The boy smiled at his grandfather and left. 
He walked through the fields that surrounded his house. The paddy that was planted a few weeks back, had started growing. The land on both sides was painted bright green till the horizon. The boy was used to seeing this beautiful sight every day and so did not focus on it. Instead, he focussed his thoughts on the amount of time that he will take to get back home. “From here to the village road its ten minutes, from the village road to the main road its thirty minutes. From there, another 20 minutes to the temple. That means I will take 10 + 30 + 20 = 60 minutes, which is 1 hour. At the temple, I will spend 10 minutes, I think and then another 1 hour to get back home. That means I will get back home after two hours and ten minutes. I left home at 8 and so will reach back home at ten ten! I will then pick the bag and go to school. So, I will reach school at ten thirty. That means, I will miss two periods and not one. Oh no! Math’s gone too.” He felt sad. 

By the time he reached the village road he felt happier. “That’s ok. I will find out from Venu what happened, or I can ask the master itself. What is important is that I am missing the history class. Today, master said he will talk about Vikramaditya’s empire. That will be boring. I will read it from the book before the test.” The village road did not have any vehicles plying through it. Bullock carts plied on the road only once early in the morning and then again once in the evening. So, the boy walked in the middle of the road. Soon he started whistling a tune. He had learnt whistling a few days back and these days, he spent most of his time practicing whistling. He was good at it and in the past few days had picked up a small fan base. The previous evening one of the boys in the class, wanted him to learn a new song. Since then, he had been whistling the tune. He thought he will learn the whole tune in a two or three days. 

As he continued walking the scenery changed from green fields to trees and bushes. Soon, he reached a pond. It lay to his left. He stopped and stooped down to pick a flat stone that lay on the road. He flipped the stone off his hand. It flew in the direction of the pond and touched its surface, but unlike the other stones it did not sink. It skipped on the surface and flew back into air. The boy stood on the bank of the pond and counted “One, two, three, four, five, si… Oh no! Almost six times. Wow! That’s a record! Five and a half skips.” The boy continued to walk. He continued to whistle. Step by step be moved closer to the main road. When he was a few yards from the main road he stopped suddenly. A long black snake lay in front of him. The rains had only stopped a few weeks back and many of the snake burrows were flooded still. So, the snakes were forced to stay over the ground. They slithered around for some time and when they got tired, they stopped wherever they were and rested. 

He looked at the snake for some time. It seemed poisonous. He was sure that it was a cobra. He wondered what he should do. “Should I turn around and go back? No! Grandfather will be angry. But if the snake bites me, he will be angrier. But then I will be dead and so it would not matter. But I don’t want to die. So that is not an option. But I can’t turn back now. But…” Suddenly, he remembered his mother telling him “When you are walking in the fields late at night stomp your legs hard on the ground then the snakes will not come near you.” He did not understand the connection between stomping legs and snakes. He was also not sure what stomping legs will result in when the snake is this close already. But he had no choice but to stomp if he wanted to proceed further. So, he stomped his legs hard on the ground. He stomped like a soldier chanting “Left, right, left, right, left right, left, …” For reasons only known to the snake, it started slithering to the side of the road a little after he started stomping. A victorious smile appeared on the boy’s face. He had won over the snake. “Now no snake can come near me. I have the ultimate snake weapon.” The snake disappeared into the bushes, and he continued his journey.

The main road was crowded when compared to the village road. People walked on its sides. Bullock carts passed by at a leisure pace. The persons driving the cart did not seem to be in any kind of hurry. They flipped the whip that they held in their hands out of habit than need. The whip did not affect the bullocks. Only the flies that flew around the bullocks’ backside flew away annoyed. From time to time, horse carts went by at great pace. The carts drivers in this case seemed impatient and constantly smacked their horse’s back with their whips. The boy looked at the horse carts with interest. He liked the sight of the horses flying through the air. He segregated the horse based on their colour and tracked the count. By the time he left the main road some minutes later, he had counted 3 white and brown horses, 2 white and black horses and 1 brown horse. 

The temple was small and was situated by a pond. It was not crowded. A few devotees stood in front of the inner sanctum and prayed with their eyes closed. One of them shouted “Om Namah Sivaya” suddenly and the boy nearly lost his balance in shock. The temple priest saw him and waved at him. The priest held out the prasadam in a yellow bag. The boy stretched out his hand and the priest dropped the bag into his stretched out palm. The priest asked, “How is your grandfather?” “He is good.” “Please request him to come one evening.” The boy nodded his head and walked away. 

As he stepped out of the temple, he noticed a man and a woman arguing with a horse cart driver. The man said “That is too expensive. It is not very far. Why are you charging so much?” The woman added “We can buy a horse at this cost.” The driver snapped his whip on the horse while saying “Then buy a horse and go in your own horse.” As the whip struck the horse’s back, it started moving forward. The man shouted “Hey wait. Ok, ok! We will pay the exorbitant amount you are asking.” The horse cart stopped. The driver stretched out his hand and said, “Its fair price. Pay now.” The man said “No, I will pay at the end of the journey.” The driver lifted his whip to strike the horse. The man protested “Don’t you trust us?” The driver responded “No”. The man said, “How can we trust you?” The driver said, “You don’t have to.” The man said “Ok, ok. Here is the money.” The man and woman boarded the cart and it moved away. 

The boy walked along the sides of the main road. He got the feeling he had spent a lot more time on road than he had expected. He walked briskly and did not wait to observe the events that took place around him. As he reached closer home, he crossed the school. He heard the voices of the children and the teachers. Suddenly, he missed being in the school. He started running towards home. As soon as he reached home, he ran up to his grandfather’s room. His grandfather was sitting by his table and writing something. When the boy entered the room, his grandfather looked up and said, “What took you so long?” The boy said, “It took this long.” The grandfather said “Ok, ok! Now run to the school.” The boy placed the prasadam on his grandfather's table and ran out of the room.

Saturday, July 27, 2024

Movies

Count from August 2023: 26.

August 2023 - 26 movies and series
  1. Jack Ryan (Seasons 3 and 4)
  2. Good Omens 2
  3. Pachuvinte Athbuthavilakku
  4. Vellari Pattinam
  5. Pathuthala
  6. Mahaan
  7. Neelavelicham
  8. Arrival
  9. The Imitation Games
  10. First Man
  11. Thankam
  12. Jailer
  13. Thandatti
  14. Malayankunju
  15. Yaathisai
  16. Maaveeran
  17. Ela Veezha Poonchira
  18. Jurassic World: Fallen Kingdom
  19. Jurassic World: Dominion
  20. Top Gun: Maverick
  21. Jack Reacher
  22. Jack Reacher 2
  23. The Mummy
  24. Naradan
  25. Vendu Thanindhathu Kaadu
  26. Confess, Fletch

Count from August 2023: 45.

September 2023
  1. Charles Enterprises
  2. Yanai Mugathan
  3. Extra Ordinary
  4. Happy-go-lucky
  5. Madhuraiyai Meetta Sundharapandiyan
  6. Bhargavi Nilayam
  7. Ardh Satya
  8. Nalla nilavulla rathri
  9. RDX
  10. Christopher
  11. Kaduva
  12. Women Talking
  13. Yuvaratna
  14. Om
  15. Kantara
  16. American Gangster
  17. Citizen Kane
  18. Veyil
  19. Bambai meri jaan

Count from August 2023: 60.

October 2023
  1. Dahaad
  2. Thiruchitrambalam
  3. Lucky Man
  4. The Covenant
  5. Kannur Squad
  6. Mark Antony
  7. Rahasya
  8. The Stoneman murders.
  9. Shimla Special
  10. Hannah and her Sisters
  11. Mirzapur (seasons 1 and 2)
  12. The Covenant
  13. Paramoporul
  14. Kumari Srimathi
  15. Killings of the Flower Moon


Count from August 2023: 134 
March 2024 - 15 movies and series
  1. Corona Papers: This is a filler movie that I snuck in between other movies. I was in a mood for malayalam movies and so I picked this one. The movies stars Shane Nigam, whose movies are always interesting. But the director of the movie is Priyadarshan, who I don't consider to be a good director but has made some funny movies. He was a big director in 80s and 90s. In general, the new movies by the big directors of those years have not been good. So I did not have much hope for this movie. Sure enough the movie was not great. It was ok - a reasonable thriller. It has been two months since I have seen this movie and I don't remember much of the movie. It has slipped out of my mind. A forgettable movie I guess. 
  2. Malikappuram: This movie has a high rating in IMDB and it stars Unni Mukundan. This is one of the God supports the good movie. So it reminded me of many movies that I had seen in the past.
  3. Manjummel boys:
  4. Hridayam:
  5. Neru:
  6. 12th Fail
  7. Pookkaalam:
  8. Janaki Jaane:
  9.  Jaya jaya jaya hey:
  10. Perilloor Premier League (series):
  11. Masterpeace (series):
  12. King of Kotha:
  13. Dune 2:
  14. Malaikottai Vaalibhan:
  15. Bheeshma Parvam:

Count from August 2023: 147+ 

April 2024 - 13 movies and series
  1. Varathan:
  2. Aattam:
  3. Kooman:
  4. Carnival Row (Season 1):
  5. Carnival Row (Season 2):
  6. J.Baby:
  7. Premulu:
  8. Poacher (Season 1):
  9. 83:
  10. The Teacher's Lounge
  11. Aavesham:
  12. Special Ops (Season 1):
  13. Aarya (Season 1):

Count from August 2023: 153 

May 2024 -  movies and series
  1. Aarya (Season 2):
  2. Saba Nayagan:
  3. The Boy and the Heron:
  4. Bhavesh Joshi Superhero:
  5. Madgaon Express:
  6. The Tudors (Season 1): For the past many years topics related to history have interested me. I have read many books and watched movies related to history. So when I realised that one of the series that Amazon suggested, The Tudors, is related to a king of England, I started watching it. It is only after a few episodes that I realised that the series was about King Henry VIII, who killed many of his wives and also made England Protestant. Actually, the last point was not true, though I believed it to be so till I watched the series. He took England away from the Catholic faith but did not embrace the Protestant path. That happened during the reign of his daughter, Elizabeth I.

    I loved watching this series and watched all four seasons in a stretch. King Henry VIII is a villain of the highest order. He manipulated everyone and everything for his own convenience. But he always claimed to be a fair and knowledgeable person and the people around him had no choice but to accept this. Jonathan Rhys brings out this character beautifully. I had only seen him in 'Bend it like Beckham' earlier and that character was very different from this one. But now I will only remember him as King Henry VIII.

    I see that the series does not have a great rating but I loved it. I thought it brought out the politics in the king's court well. It also made me sympathize with  villainous characters, in the sense, it brought out no one is good or bad well. People do things for survival or power and these become harmful for others. Ultimately, these acts boomerang and they themselves get caught in it.

    The one big issue was that there are too many graphic sex scenes in the series. This makes it impossible to recommend this series to almost anyone. In a sense, these scenes bring out morals of the time but still I think they could have been toned down a lot.

    Talking specifically about this season, it is an intriguing start to the whole series. Jonathan Rhys, Sam Neill and Henry Cavill take care of it well. I really liked the way Henry Cavill changed physically and emotionally through the series. It was even better than that of Jonathan Rhys. It ended with the Henry's second wife Anne, being at the cusp of becoming his wife. Her character seemed extremely scheming. But by the end of the second series, she gets trapped in her schemes and becomes a pitiable figure.

Count from August 2023: 171 

June 2024 -  movies and series
  1. The Tudors (Season 2): I really liked the way the Queen Anne's life changes and one's own feeling changes the season comes to a close.
  2. Guruvayoor Ambalanadayil: We wanted to see a movie in theatre and this was the only option. We had seen a few scenes from the movie and they seemed funny. But none of us are fans of Prithviraj and we were not keen to watch the movie. But we liked most of the other actors, including Basil, Anaswara and Nikhila. This turned out to be a laugh riot. It was silly as hell but in a good manner. It is like reaching hell and instead of being boiled in oil, one is tickled. The ending with its spoofy reference to Nandanam ensures that the viewer walks out of the theatre laughing. I am glad we saw this movie in a near empty theatre.
  3. The Tudors (Season 3): This season once again proved that the people in power were always in danger of losing their life. Their downfall is also aided by people who surround the king. The king is merciless and kills the trusted people around him and regrets later.
  4. Premulu: At last, I watched this famed movie. Its fun and the romance is fresh. The story is cliched but it is presented in a fun manner and one does not take it seriously. The dialogues and acting are good and from my point of views, the movie seems good primarily due to these factors. The big advantage of the movie is that it stays with you even after the movie finishes. I was not very impressed by the movie when I watched it but it stayed with me and then the reels on FB kept reminding me of the good scenes. As a result, my impression of the movie with passing of time.
  5. The Tudors (Season 4): The grand finale of the series. It is interesting to see the transformation of the religious beliefs of the England. It moves away from Pope based Catholicism to a king based Catholic like Christianity. The sixth and the last queen of the King Henry, Catherine Parr surreptiously tries to the move the country to Protestantism. Also, King Henry's ruthlessness comes out clearly in his marrying his 5th queen Catherine Howard who was only 17 compared to him being in his 40s. I loved this series. It made me understand a lot about England's history during the important. I plan to the watch the movie, Elizabeth as a followup soon. Elizabeth is King Henry's daughter and it was during her reign that England converted to protestantism. 
  6. Hacksaw Ridge: I saw this movie in Prime under the section "
  7. Panchayat (Season 3):
  8. Taxi Teheran:
  9. Valiya Chirakulla Pakshikal:
  10. Tumse na ho payega:
  11. Veyilmarangal:
  12. Anatomy of a fall:
  13. Once
  14. Greenzone:
  15. Mercury rising;
  16. Looper
  17. Predestination: This movie blew my mind off. It is a science fiction movie but it is a drama and not an action movie. In fact the movie only has a few action scenes. It builds slowly through conversation and incidents to the ultimate revelations. The first revelation is interesting but as more and more revelations happen, I was amazed by the realistic nature of an absurd idea. In a sense, this movie and Looper have some similarities and as I mentioned for that movie, it in some manner connects to the original Terminator movie. I loved this movie and have been recommending it to a couple of people. Watching such movies has made me realize that people should watch more movies but most don't care.  
  18. Varshangalukku Sesham:

Count from August 2023: 207 

August 2024 -  movies and series
  1. Deadpool & Wolverine:
  2. Brahmastra:
  3. The Equalizer
  4. The Equalizer 2:
  5. The Equalizer 3:
  6. Paradise:
  7. Nan Pakalnerathu Mayakkam:
  8. Minnal Murali:
  9. Katta Kushthi:
  10. Thallumaala:
  11. Iratta:
  12. CBI 5:
  13. Oru Thekkan Thallu Case:
  14. Churuli:
  15. Kim's Convenience (Season 1):
  16. Thangalaan: I have never been doped but I get the feeling the experience will be like watching this movie. I decided I will watch this movie in the theater. I chose a Wednesday afternoon in the second week of the movie.
  17. Anweshippin Kandethum:
  18. Padavettu:

Count from September2023: 207 + 

August 2024 -  movies and series
    1. Kuttavum Shikshayum
    2. Maamannan
    3. Ullozhukku
    4. Turbo
    5. Thalavan

          Friday, July 19, 2024

          Hiding in the Blackboard


          On my first day at school, I stood in front of the black board and stared at it anxiously. During the first part of my life, I had spent many hours staring at the words and numbers written on the blackboard wondering when the teacher will stop writing. Now, I found myself on the other side of the table. I wondered if my students would have similar thoughts. A question popped into my head "should I avoid the blackboard?" I searched through my memory of school and college life but could not find a teacher who had not used the blackboard. I erased the question from my mind, picked a piece of chalk from the table and walked towards the blackboard.

          As the days passed, the anxiety l felt on the first day disappeared. Every time I wanted to explain something, I found my right hand move involuntarily towards the blackboard. The method to determine the HCF of two numbers, started at the top of the board and grew steadily towards the bottom. Numbers with the help of alphabets and symbols attempted to narrate the stories behind LCM and BODMAS. Gravity’s conspiracy to bring down objects was exposed using circles, lines and arrow marks on the blackboard. A horizontal line towards the lower part of the board represented the ground and a circle at some distance above the line became the ball. An arrow mark pointed from the circle towards the line to show that the ball had no choice but to fall towards the ground. I let the alphabets G, g, M, m and d tussle above and below a small horizontal line to explain the force of gravity, which was responsible for the objects falling towards ground. As I described these concepts on the blackboard, I talked to the children continuously.

          I did not use the blackboard well. At the beginning of the class, the board started off clean and black. As soon as the central part of the board was filled with physics or maths, I moved to its two sides and twenty minutes later, there was no space left on the blackboard. I had to find space to continue. I paused for a moment to stare at the board and decipher how to proceed. Every piece of information on the board seemed important and I struggled to decide which part of the board I could erase. Finally, I created a small black island near the centre of the board, enveloped it with a white border and continued. It did not take long for the blackboard to become a letter-y mess again. A few days later, I decided I had to learn to use the blackboard well. I sneaked into the classrooms of some of the senior teachers and observed them use the blackboard. These observations gave me an important insight on the its use – Do not start writing from the centre of the blackboard. Instead, start from its top left corner and proceed to the right bottom corner. 

          The next day, I walked confidently into the class. I erased the blackboard and before turning around to face the class, closed my eyes and said softly “start from the left – top corner”. I turned around and started discussing fractions. Within minutes, I walked up to the board wrote the word numerator. I drew a line under it and wrote denominator. I placed the equal to symbol next to them and wrote a set of numbers that represented fractions. I was on the verge of writing the tenth fraction on the board when I recoiled from the blackboard in horror. The piece of chalk fell out of my lifeless fingers. I stared at the board in horror. Once again, I had started writing from the centre of the board. I erased the board and started writing from the top – left corner of the board. Twenty minutes later, I stood in the front the fraction – filled black board wondering how to proceed.

          Over the next few days, I realized that starting at the top – left corner of the blackboard did not change the matters much. For me the blackboard was a tool used in the process of learning. I only used it as an aid to the words I uttered; a scratchpad. From my point of view, the discussions in the class were more important. Written words were available in the textbooks and they could always be supplemented with worksheets. These methods of passing information were more permanent than the white markings on a blackboard. This comprehension made me comfortable with the use of blackboard. I even looked forward to using it. I looked with pride at my chalk dust covered fingers as I walked out the classroom at the end of a session. I liked using the blackboard.

          Unknown to me, the world was making plans to shatter my world of comfort. The events that started on 17th March 2020 brought about a change in the way I handled the classroom. As we walked out of the school that evening, we thought that we were taking an early vacation break. We expected to get back the school in June. But we had underestimated the situation and by July we realized that the children will not be in school for a few more months. So, we had no choice but to append an ‘e’ and a ‘-‘ to school and continue. The words classrooms and homework were replaced with interactive sessions and assignments. We moved from the world of tables and chairs to the world of smartphones, tablets and computers. 

          I enjoyed meeting the children over the internet. The computer screen seemed like an equal ground compared to the classroom. The teacher was locked in a rectangle like the students and did not own the space at front of the classroom. Everyone in the class possessed an equal share of the real estate and this resulted in many open and equal discussions, especially during the non-academic sessions. I enjoyed listening to the children when they displayed eagerness to talk during many of the sessions.

          This did not mean that the online mode of education was bereft of problems. Many of the children and teachers had issues with their internet connections. They were unable to hear and see others when they switched on their own cameras. The video conferencing software required consistent connections, which could not be guaranteed in many places. To complicate matters, in many homes, three or four members of a family were on video meetings at the same time. This meant all of them had issues in getting good connections and none of them had a satisfactory experience.

          My initial euphoria about the online mode of education died down when the faces started disappearing from my screen. I did not enjoy talking to a set of alphabets. To be fair the video conferencing software that we used tried to brighten our spirits by placing these alphabets within coloured circles but this was only a poor replacement for the faces. Soon, I realized that not everyone faced internet issues. Some of them did not like to be seen on the screen and preferred to switch off their cameras. During many of the sessions, I requested, and sometimes pleaded to the children to come on camera. As time passed, this became a tiresome exercise and I preferred talking to alphabets over reminding the children to come on camera.

          I did not have the advantage of using the blackboard during the online classes. During the first year of the pandemic, I, like the other teachers across the world, conducted my classes from my home. I did not posses a black or white board in my house. So, I was forced to discuss about gravity without the help of the circles, arrows and lines. But I had to prove to the class that the force of gravity existed and convince them that it is a force. I looked around in desperation and found a coaster on my table. I picked it up, showed it to the children and dropped it from a height. As soon as I let go of the coaster, I realized that the force and Newton’s third law could result in the coaster breaking when it hit the floor. A second later, the coaster landed on the floor. The resulting sound brought the other members of my family to the room. I waved them away and continued my discussions on gravity. From that day, I dropped anything that I could lay my hands on to discuss gravity and I am glad that I have not broken anything yet.

          Dropping objects is effective while talking about gravity. But there were other topics that could not be discussed through demonstrations. So, I created presentations and used them during the interactive sessions. This seems a better idea on paper than in reality as I could not see the students while I presented the material. The students too tended to get off camera the minute the presentation came on. As a result, the interactions and discussions reduced during such sessions. Within a few days, I dropped the idea of showing presentation. Instead, I started using the presentation to create videos. I used the animation and recording features of the software I was using to create videos explaining the different concepts in physics. In my opinion, this has turned out to be the greatest benefit from the online classes. I now have supplementary material that can be used across years. Students in the senior classes have found the videos useful while they prepared for examinations. 

          Unfortunately, the decision to not use presentations during the online sessions, brought back the problem of the non-availability of blackboard during online classes. In due course of time, I used different means to solve this issue. I started using objects in the house to demonstrate concepts. The tongs and scissors came in handy to explain levers. A glass of water and pencil demonstrated the effect of refraction of light. The increase in the force of water flowing from a plastic bottle through holes at different heights proved the increase in pressure as the depth of water increased. My ability to demonstrate concepts increased once the restrictions of the lockdown were taken off. I started visiting the school and using the equipments from the laboratory to demonstrate concepts. 

          When I did not find an object to explain a concept, I used my palms to as tools for demonstration. One palm became the nucleus of an atom and the other an electron going around the nucleus. Sometimes the left palm became the north pole of a magnet and the right showed the lines of force emanating from this pole of the magnet. The classes became animated and, in the process, I added drama to my voice. I got the feeling that I had become an actor on a stage when I started an interactive session.

          After a year of online classes, the children started coming to the school. We had got used to the phrase online classes and started calling the classes conducted in the school as offline classes.  But we soon realized that the use of the phrase offline did not seem appropriate and we moved to calling them in-school classes or in-person classes. 
          The feeling of an actor walking on to a stage increased when I walked into a classroom. The blackboard could no longer satisfy my requirements. Instead, I used my hands to explain concepts. I took a paper and the duster and dropped the two. As expected, the duster hit the floor earlier than the paper. Next, I crumpled the paper and dropped it again with the duster. This time, both the objects hit the floor at the same time. Thus, I was able to prove to the class that acceleration due to gravity did not depend on the mass of an object. I conducted a class in the physics laboratory to prove inductance. The use of my hands and laboratory equipment have reduced my dependence on the blackboard. 

          One day as I was erasing the blackboard prior to start of a class, one of the students asked “Anna, why do you erase the board every day, you don't use the it anyway?”

          Saturday, July 13, 2024

          Bandit Rat

          Before I get into the actual material, let me start with a few clarifications (I plan to clarify one point, but I am not sure if more would flow in).

          The protagonists in this write up are not humans, meaning they belong to animal kingdom, excluding humans that is. But be assured no animals were harmed by me in the process of recording these events. I mean not physically harmed I cannot guarantee the same about emotional harm though. I cant even vouch the same for human beings... What the hell am I writing. This is not what I wanted to write about.

          For very long time... Just to make it clear, I am still clarifying. 

          For a very long time, I have been confused about the use of pronouns when referring to animal, birds, reptiles, bacteria, virus, etc. These days I am not even sure about the pronouns to be used when referring to a fellow human. A friend of mine said "I will be meeting them at the Victory Cafe. I hope you can drop me there." When I reached the cafe I saw a girl wave at him. I said "Oh! Looks like only one of them has reached." He looked at me shocked and said "That's them". I felt confused "What do you mean by that's them? There is only one girl." He shushed me "Please! They/Them." I finally understood what he said and asked him to get off my car. I think I am too old to understand pronouns. I am not sure I understood much of it in my younger days either. I mean... Hmmm... I went off track again.

          How do I determine the sex of an animal? With dogs and cats, it's not complicated but what about frogs or mice or fish? Even with dogs and cats I don't observe them with enough keenness to determine their sex. For me, a dog is a dog and a cat is a cat. I don't care about their gender. So, when I refer to them I am not sure if I should refer to them as he or she. So I choose a neutral ground and refer to animals at it. For a long time, I thought this was not appropriate as 'it' is used to refer to inanimate objects. But just now, I checked the dictionary and one of the definitions of 'it' is 'a person or animal whose sex is unknown or disregarded'. So I am not wrong in referring to most of the characters in this write up as 'it'. It also means that all these words that I have written are pointless. No, not really. I learnt something today. So, its ok.

          ... and now, let us get to the reason for this piece of writing to exist.

          For many years, I have observed that a cat suddenly appears in my neighbourhood. By 'suddenly appears', I don't mean 'one minute there was nothing and the next moment 'poof' a cat appears' - not the magician type of 'suddenly appears', Instead, I mean the 'hey, I have never seen that black cat before' type of 'suddenly appears'. I need to clarify here that I am not talking about kittens but full blown cats appearing in one's neighbourhood from out of the blue. One might think, that these could be cats that moved from another neighbourhood. Well, that is a possibility and in some cases that is what happens too. But it is not true in all cases. Cats seldom move out of their neighbourhoods. Only dire situations force some of them to move out. So suddenly appearing cats appear due to a different reason.

          There is a myth about cats  - Cats have nine lives. This is not a myth; cat do have nine lives. When one of their lives end, they appear at some spot on the planet. There is probably an algorithm that decides the spot at which they reappear but I am not sure if anyone has deciphered it yet. Sometimes, they reappear in the middle of Pacific ocean and other times on top of Mount Everest. The earlier life of the unfortunate cat, ends immediately and the next one starts unless, of course the earlier life was the ninth life, in which case, they don't reappear anywhere on this planet. In the new life, the cat's appearance, size, age and behaviour remains the same as it was prior to the end in its previous life. For example, if a three year old grumpy brown cat dies for the third time then it reappears as a three year old grumpy brown cat in its fourth life. This is the reason for cats suddenly appearing in a neighbourhood. It goes without saying that kittens are living through their first cat life.

          I hope I have made this clear. Now let us move on to the actual content.

          The village lay besides a highway. Vehicles flowed through the highway in both directions all the time. The highway was like the border between two unfriendly countries. No one crossed from one side to the other. During the early days of the highway, a few brave persons attempted to cross the road from one side to the other. But many of them lost their lives and soon no one attempted to cross the road. Of course, the animals living by the highway did not take this decision and continued to the cross the road. In the process, many of them lost their lives. But this did not deter them.

          A brown and white cat, lived in one of the villages by the highway. It associated itself with one of the houses in the village. The people who resided the house loved to feed the cat. The cat allowed them to pet it while it was eating. At other times, it kept away from them. The cat did not spend a lot of time at the house though. It liked the food that was served there and that was the only reason for it to visit the house. The cat had tried a consume the food at a few other houses in the village but it did not like their food's taste. So, its food consumption was limited to that house. Through the remaining part of the day and night the cat rested at different places in the village.

          One day, the cat noticed a large tree that stood at some distance from the village. The tree by itself did not interest the cat but the birds that flew in and around it did. It quickly ran towards the lone tree. As it reached closer, it slowed down and finally stopped in crouch close to the tree. From that position it watched the birds intently, they were small. The cat observed them for sometime and selected one of the birds as the ideal candidate for a late evening snack. It started moving stealthily towards the bird. The little bird unaware of its precarious position flew around chirping happily. When the cat reached a few inches from the bird it stopped and almost immediately jumped at the bird. The bird noticed the movement and flew away. The cat paw could only grace the bird's rear feathers.  The cat let out an annoyed 'meow' and chased the bird. In panic, the bird flew low and did not know where it was flying. The cat, focussed on the bird, did not know where it was going either. All of sudden a flash of light blinded the cat. The next moment the cat found itself entwined between the legs of a man.

          As a part of my new found exercise routine, I walked around my apartment complex in the evening. Old age and the scare of early death had driven me to thirty minute of swimming in the morning and forty minutes of brisk walk in the evening. I did not enjoy doing either but both the activities had their own perks. So I went about these activities with sincerity. Usually, I go for a walk at around 10 pm. I got delayed that night. I only went down at 11:30 pm. Other than a couple of security guards the pathways were empty. As is usually the case, loud music played into my ears through the Bluetooth headset that cupped my ears. Ozzy Osbourne were berating the politicians for sending the children of the poor to war. I had heard the song a million times and it did not have the impact that it had many years back. Still the song sounded groovy and I shook my head as I walked towards the gate of the complex.

          Suddenly, I tripped and nearly fell. Something ran between my legs and my right foot tripped on it. At the same time, the something gave out a painful yell and ran away towards one of the buildings in the complex. I looked in its direction, it was a brown and white cat. I had never seen that cat earlier. As a matter of fact I did not think know that cats resided in our complex. So I wondered where it had come from and how it ended up between my legs. I shook my head, said "Bloody cat" and continued walking.

          Two nights later, I saw the brown and white cat conversing with two other cats. I stood and looked at them for sometime. Two days earlier there were no cats in the complex, but now there were three. Once again I wondered where they had come from. It is important for me to mention here that at that point I was not aware of the nine lives theory. I looked at the cats for sometime, the brown and white cat stared at me for sometime before turning away. I continued with my walk. When I came back to the same spot, I was shocked to observe a strange creature in the middle of the path. On closer inspection I realized that the strange creature was an Indian bandicoot rat. It was sniffing at something in the middle of the path. As I came closer, it lost interest in the sniffing. It turned around and started running in my direction. No, that's not true. It did not run, it hopped. Not a normal hop but a trippy hop; a hippity hop to be precise.

          It came hopping along with a tune in its lip. I could not identify the tune; it was probably the latest hit from the 106.3 Bandicoot FM. When it was a few steps away from me, it stopped. It looked at my shoe decked left foot and then up at me. It said "Yikes!", turned around and ran away. It did not exactly run away, but ambled away for it was too heavy to run. Even in its desperate run from danger, there was a trippiness. It seemed like nothing could take away its sense of joy. For the first time in my life, I thought that bandicoots should be renamed bandicutes. It possessed none of the furtive look that most bandicoots have. This one was confident that it was doing nothing wrong. I felt a liking towards the bandicoot grow in me. Soon it disappeared under a car.

          As I continued my walk, I found the brown and white cat walking besides me. It looked at me and asked "Did you see its size?" I nodded. It continued "That's the largest rat ever". I corrected the cat "It's not a rat, it's a bandicoot." The cat became confused "Bandi-what? Nope! That's a rat. Did you not see its snout? Its a rat. That's for sure." I did not continue the argument. For many years, I too thought that bandicoots were big rats. Maybe biology would have been simpler, if bandicoots were called big rats. But then that makes no difference to me. I am not interested in biology. The cat continued "We were living peacefully before huge creature appeared. I have no idea where it came from. Do you know?" I shook my head and said "I am not even sure where you came from". The cat looked at me shocked and said "What do you mean? I was always here. This is my home." I disagreed "No. One night you suddenly appeared between my feet." The cat appeared even more shocked "You mean you gave birth to me! You are my mama?" It was my turn to be shocked "No! That's not what I mean. I mean... Oh! Never mind! Are you scared of that big rat?" "Aren't you? I mean look at its size. It can eat me for dinner. ... or lunch." I disagreed "Rat don't eat cats. Cats eat rat." It shook its head and said "Uh, uh! Not me. I prefer birds." I remembered I had seen the cat the running with a bird fluttering in its mouth the previous morning. I asked "Was that bird delicious?" Once again, it sounded confused "Which bird?" "The one you had yesterday morning." The cat started moving away from me "Oh birds are always delicious! Much better than rice and potato. Certainly better than rats." I watched the cat go away towards the car park.

          The next night, I saw the bandicoot plopping along from one building to the next. Suddenly it stopped, looked to its left and then started running towards another building. As I watched it run, I felt a presence near me. The brown and white cat sat besides me, looking at the bandicoot. It said "Why can't that disgusting creature just go away? It has taken away half of our space." I said "I think you are over reacting. It will not harm you. It seems cute." The cat did not agree "Cute? Baaah! Yesterday, it attacked the white and black cat. It nearly bit the cat's head off. This cannot go on. Something has to be done." The cat walked away from me shaking its head.

          Next morning, as I was walking at another part of the complex. I found something lying on the middle of the path. It was the bandicoot lying on its side. As I reached closer, I realized it was dead. I looked around for the cats but found none. I did not see any marks or wounds on it. I considered checking it for life but found the thought disgusting. I said a sad good bye to the trippy bandicoot and walked away.

          Since that morning, I have the seen the brown and white cat a number of times but it has never conversed with me again. I tried approaching it many times but every time I approached, it walked away from me. I wonder if it was responsible for the bandicoot's end. I will never know.

          Wednesday, May 1, 2024

          Movies - February 2024

          Count from August 2023: 119

          February 2024 - 20 movies and series
          1. Garudan: The 100th movie/series on this list. I wanted to watch this movie on the day it was released but I was not sure about its quality. Later, I heard that the movie got good reviews but the moment had passed and I did not feel like watching it. The movie came up as a suggestion when I watched Antony and I decided to watch it. Unfortunately, I got to know an important point in the plot of the movie while watching it and so the element of suspense was lost. I wonder if I would have guessed it anyway. The details of the twist are interesting and makes the movie watchable. The main element of the plot is similar to a hindi series that I had watched a few months back. So I get the feeling that this would have given a clue too. For some reason though this is a better made movie than Antony, I liked that movie better. Not that I will watch either of these movies again. I found Suresh Gopi annoying. The dialogues in English and his delivery sounds artificial. Biju Menon was good for most of the movie but goes overboard towards the end. Overall, its an ok movie. It only became interesting thirty minutes before the endand that is not a good news for a movie in this genre. I am glad I did not watch it in the theatres. 
          2. Tholvi FC: I want to see Kaathal desperately. There is so much noise about the excellentness of the movie that I want to see it undisturbed. But that is difficult at home. Unless I go to the theaters, I watch movies while I am involved in some other activity. There is too much to be done at home and so I get little time to sit to watch a movie. So to pass time till I get the time to watch a movie without distractions, I watched this movie. It is a comedy, it has many people from 'Premam' and it has an IMDB rating of 6.8. So why not! It is yet another feel good malayalam movie. So many things go wrong for the members of the family, who specialize in not winning (or losing, I am not sure which) and yet no one seems sad. The other interesting point is that each member of the family keeps losing money on their different ventures and yet they have enough money to lose and live well. This is not exactly unbelievable. I have been through that situation many times in the past 12 years. The movie in that sense is motivating - Keep spending and losing money as one can be sure that money will reach you from some unexpected source. I liked the movie. It is not really a comedy. A few scenes are funny but at most times, it felt light hearted. The misery of the people on screen did not affect me. As expected things brighten up in the end else the movie can go on for ever or the movie can never end or worse, the movie might be considered an art movie. But the good part is that the happiness at the end does not seem miraclous or terribly cheesy. I kept thinking "Yeah! That could happen. Did it not happen to me? So it could happen to anyone!" Also, I was surprised by how the movie causually inserts a disturbing aspect into it. The incident has a good message surrounding it but was inserted without being preachy. Good movie to watch once with no expectations. One crib: Why has Sharafudeen become such a serious actor? I really miss the 'kozhi' of 'Premam'.
          3.  Philips: Yet another movie that I watched as I did not have the totally undistracted time required to watch Kaathal. This movie has Mukesh in the lead, which these days does not guarantee a good movie. But the movie has received good reviews. It is yet another malayalam feel good movie. Also, it is Innocent's last role in the film world. It has an IMDB rating of 7.1. These are reasons enough to watch the movie. I loved it. I loved almost every frame of the movie. The actors are superb. The two girls and the boy, acting as Philip's children, are very good. They look familiar and yet I can't remember seeing them in any movie. So they appear fresh. The movie is taken well, it is touching and yet not melodramatic. Mukesh is good too but I have seen so many of his movies that his expressions are guessable. Innocent is terrific and I felt sad about the actor's passing away as the movie progressed. Its a beautiful movie.
          4. Judgement at Nuremberg: I was still not ready to watch Kaathal and went looking out for another movie. I landed with this one. The name is interesting. The events of World war 2 and its aftermath are always interesting to read and observe. Besides the movie had a high IMDB rating. Sure enough, this is an incredible movie. It is like a documentary. Only a few scenes have background music. The actors are so good that it seems like they lived through the experience. There is a lot to learn from the movie, especially in these polarized times. The ending is absolutely brilliant. At the end, there is a good line mentioned by of the characters, "To be logical is not to be right". I am not sure if I would have thought so earlier. Prime Videos is one of the best things that has happened to my life. I have seen movies that I would not even have heard of otherwise. Whoever is reading this, watch this movie.
          5. Thelma and Louise: I started watching the series Superman and Lois. I don't think I like it much but am not able to drop it. It is a family drama that borders on melodrama and yet is not completely boring. But at the end of every two episodes, I feel like taking a break. This and the next few movies, are seen while taking a break from the series. The series has completed three seasons and each season seem to be 15 to 17 episodes long and so this will go on for some time. I have heard about Thelma and Louise for a long time but somehow thought it is an unhappy movie and so avoided it. Recently, I realized (or got reminded) that the movie is directed by Ridley Scott. So I clicked on the 'Watch now' button on Prime. At first I could not get into the movie. I like Susan Sarandon and she holds the movie well. I do not have an opinion on Geena Davis but she lived up to the character's expectation and was annoying. I was ready to write her off as stupid when the second part of the movie transformed her. This is not a long movie and still the director was able to bring about this transformation in her character gradually and convincingly. I think that is the best part of the movie I liked the best. I loved the last 15 minutes of the movie. The close up shots of Susan Sarandon and Geena Davis' towards the end were brilliant. I should have watched this movie earlier.
          6. Capote: I remeber Capote due to the Academy award that Phillip Seymour Hoffman won. Till I watched the movie, I thought this movie was about the life of a gangster. As stupid as I feel, I have to admit humbly that I had no idea who Truman Capote was. As I watched the movie, I felt annoyed by Phillips Seymour Hoffman but that I think is the intent. I don't think that Capote was a likable character and the actor portrayed it well. I was thrilled to see that one of the characters in the movie is Harper Lee. I love the book 'To kill a mockingbird' and to learn something about the author at the time of its publishing makes the movie interesting. The most impressive aspect of the movie was that it challenged my tendency to identify the good from the bad. There are many movies that deal with the greyness of a character but I don't think any movie deals with this topic as well as this movie. I found it very difficult to segregate any of the three persons at the centre as good or bad. The toughest was Capote. I was never sure if he was a selfish bastard who manipulated the other two and others around him or a person with soft heart. The last few minutes of the movie were beautiful. The movie made me want to order the book the development of which is shown in the movie - 'In cold blood'. But I did not order it.  
          7. Me before you: Valentine's day is round the corner and it seems cupid has struck me. I wanted to fall in love. As that is not a possibility in real life, something even better happened. I fell in love with people falling in love with each other and it was beautiful. It started off with this movie. It was a suggestion in Prime for the movie 'Pride and Prejudice', which for me is the greatest love story (both on film and on paper). It is a British rom-com and so I had a lot of hope for it -  Remember 'Notting Hill', another greatest rom-com ever. I started watching this movie at 10:00 pm two days prior to Valentine's day. I thought I will watch 15 minutes of the movie and go to bed. At midnight I got off my chair, wiped a tear drop attempting to flow down my left cheek and switched off the lights. I could only grab four and a half hours of sleep and the next day I walked into the office with a heavy weight weighing my head down. Emilia Clarke plays the lead in the movie. I have only seen one episode of 'Games of thrones' and so have no idea how she is in the series. But I have seen a snip of her interact with Matt Le Blanc in the Graham Norton show and she seemed to be adept at playing roles in which men fall in love with her the moment they see her. Sure enough the hero of the movie falls in love with her the moment he sees her. But his position is such that he cannot express it. So we go through 60 odd minutes of her clawing through his fortress to open up his heart to her. In this movie, Emilia Clarke does what she does well well. Though at times, the muscles on her face contort worryingly. I wondered if it could be CGI but then I remembered the interview and in it too she indulged in similar facial gymnastics. The ending of the movie is brilliant. I felt too lazy to get up and find a napkin or a bucket else I would have cried bucketloads. I might watch this movie again in a few years or maybe not.
          8. The map of tiny perfect things: The sweetest and cutest movie that I have seen. I love this movie. Its unbelievably cute and to top it is good to watch too. It has elements of science in it. It is inspired from the movie 'The Groundhog day', the characters in the movie say so openly. The lead pair is fantastic. To top it, it is a love story. What a combination! The lead characters are energetic and take the movie along well. The screenplay moves along well too. The movie brings out the boredom of living the same day over and over again, well. The ending was good too. The reason for the repetition of the day is also tied up well at the end of the movie. On the whole, a movie that I would love to watch sometime in the not too distant future.
          9. What if: This one's not the Marvel animation movie. This is the one with Daniel Radcliffe. A predictable but cute love story. The lead pair is good and so the movie is a good watch. The movie reminded me of 'Notthing Hill'. An impossible love story becomes possible as the lead pair find it impossible to not be with each other. The movie seems to be another attempt at proving that men and women can never be friends. Maybe I worder that too strongly. I should have said, men and women can never be best friends. So any one out there having a best friend belonging to the opposite sex should watch out. One slip and the pair of lips might end up meeting each other. I watched this on Feb 14 and this valentines day ended up being more romantic than any other. I had to watch the last 20 minutes of the movie at office as I could not stand the suspense of how the movie would end though it was clear to me how it will end the minute I started watching the movie. I am not sure if I will watch this movie again. Its cute but is still generic. Daniel Radcliffe, like Emilia Clarke, can suddenly display a plethora of expressions on his face.  
          10. Manchester by the sea: Valentine's day has come and gone. It is time to get romance off my life. Frankly, I tried watching a couple of rom-coms but they started off so badly that I could not watch beyond the 15th minute of the movies. I was also worried that I will have to go back to Superman and Lois. I was not ready for the series yet. I had to find another movie. I found this movie under the category of award winners in Prime Video. It has an over 7 IMDB rating. It is an amazing movie. It's like a poetry on reel. A very sad movie that deals with the death of a loved one in detail. But it is not just about that death but a few other deaths that occurred in the past. Death lingers throughout the movie. The screenplay is superb. The placement of the flashbacks is unbelievable. In one sequence the director effectively shows a person remembering his past as he tries to deal with a conversation that he is having. In those scenes, I could almost feel what that character felt. I think that is the best thing about this movie. I could live through it. It shows boredom, sadness and guilt beautifully. I don't think I remember watching any other movie that brought out these feelings so effectively. Casey Affleck is superb and quite deservedly, he won the oscar for this performance. The use of classical music in the background adds a beautiful touch to the movie. I am glad I watched this movie.
          11. Gone baby gone: Two reasons for choosing this movie - It also has an academy award nomination and it has Casey Affleck in the lead. The movie is directed by Ben Affleck, whose movie Argo was good. This is the first movie he directed. It is a crime thriller but not in the usual sense. The intent of the movie is not to determine how or why the crime was committed nor is it about solving the case. This was obvious from the beginning of the movie but it becomes clear in the last 15 minutes. These 15 minutes takes the movie to another level. I was reminded of the experience I had while watching Capote. In that movie, the question that ran through my head was "Who is good and Who is bad?" Here, it was "What is the right thing to do and what would definitely be a mistake?" As in the case of the former, here too there were no answers for the question. At the end of the movie, the story, the crime or the thriller was not important. I was left with an uneasy feeling. It should have been an happy ending but it seemed like anything but a happy ending. A thoughful movie.
          12. True grit: This one came as a suggestion from another movie, I think. It was also an Academy award winner. It is a western and I was not really in a mood to watch it. But then I did not want to go back to Superman and Lois. So I started watching it. At the end of the titles, the movie announced that the directors of the movie as Ethan Coen and Joel Coen. All the doubts I had about watching the movie disappeared. My first Coen brothers movie was 'Blood Simple'. I watched it at Subham Theatre a few decades back. I am not sure why, but I liked the movie. Since then I have watched many of their movies. They are all good with some like 'No country for old men' being spectacular. This one is not spectacular but it is a good movie. It was able to hold my attention well. All the lead actors play their characters well. There's intrigue in the movie as it is not clear for a major part of the movie who the villain is. But ultimately the villain is not important. The journey that takes place while tracking the villain is interesting. As is the case with many of the movies that I watched recently, the ending is interesting and that helped me in ending the movie on a happy note. Incidentally, this is the highest grossing movie made by the Coen brothers.
          13. Air:  I started watching this movie for three reasons - Its directed by Ben Affeck, it has Matt Damon in the cast and it is about Air Jordan. As a bonus, I got Chris Tucker too. As I watched the movie, I found it amazing that a movie based on a business deal could be made this interesting. It is like a thriller. I think it is a good movie to show to younger people too for it bring out the aspect related to perseverance, doing one's homework and thinking out of the box well. This and the other movies directed by Ben Affleck make me wonder why I did not like him earlier. He is not a bad actor but I don't think he is good actor either. Maybe that is the problem. The humour in the movie is good too. I laughed out loud when I heard the exchange between Chris Tucker and Matt Damon as they talked about Nike's slogan. "That damn slogan came from a convict about to get executed in front of a firing squad and they asked him 'what's your last words?'" "Just do it?" "Yes". 
          14. Kaathal - The core: At long last, I watched Kaathal. I kept away from it for a long time. Everyone praised the movie to the sky and yet I did not watch it. It stayed in my watchlist for long, like the character played by Jyothika in the movie. The theme of the movie, is not a happy one and that played a part in keeping me away from it. The director's previous movie 'The Great Indian Kitchen' was a tough movie to watch. So I thought that this would be a tough movie to watch too. Ironically at the end of the movie I was disappointed that the movie was not really tough. The incidents in the movie seemed uncomfortable but were not tough to sit through. The ending was a big disappointment - it made the movie a feel good movie. This made the movie seem unrealistic. I am not sure if real life is as forgiving as it is shown in the movie. Mamooty is great but Jyothika is Jyothika. She thinks her lack of expression is acting. Unfortunately, it means she is not acting. It is fortunate that she has forsaken the South Indian movies for Bollywood. She should stay there. I don't think this is a movie worth waiting for. 
          15. The founder: This came as a suggestion at the end of the movie 'Air'. I started watching it due to the presence of Michael Keaton. I am not sure I have seen many movies of his but I liked him in every movie I watched. I have always felt comfortable when I watched him on screem. But not in this movie. I did not have any idea on the inception of Mac. But the movie surprised me with the diabolical manner in which Mac became this big. As in the case of many interesting movies, it erases the line between good and bad and success and failure. Michael Keaton is so good that he is annoying as hell. Like Air, this is yet another business movie that is interesting to watch but unlike Air, this is a not feel good movie, if anything, this is a feel bad movie.
          16. Bramayugam: I had decided to watch the movie the minute I saw the first posters of the movie. Mamooty's look and the black and white feel in the poster made it seem interesting. I did not see the teasers or the trailers of the movie. I booked the tickets for the movie soon after it was released. Watching the first half of the movie is simply one of the best cinematic experiences I have had in my life. I felt trapped in that old house like Thevan. It was spooky and uncomfortable. The scare that I felt was a lot more oppressing than I had felt in any horror movie. Incidentally, I don't like the horror genre at all. I hate jumping out of my seat due to a scream or an ugly face popping out of nowhere. But in this case, there were only one or two such instance . The second half was not as good. It was not bad but the hold that the movie had in the first half was lost. Maybe, this movie should be watched without an interval. The ending, though, was brilliant. Though the movie has layers as many have analysed, I loved it at as a straight forward movie watching experience. I went for the movie a second time, as the other two in the family had not seen it. That was on Sivarathri night. I was stuck at a spot close to the theatre for nearly 30 minutes. Finally, I had to ask the two of them to walk to the theatre and I went in later. I also had a call 30 minutes into the movie. So I missed most of the first half of the movie.   
          17. 11.22.63: Someone mentioned about this book written by Stephen King and a week later I found that there is a series by the same name. I started watching it. James Franco plays the lead in the series and I find it comfortable to watch him on screen. The story is interesting (obviously, it is written by Stephen King). Sarah Gadon, plays her character beautifully. I found the chemistry between Franco and her incredible. As a result, this series is as much a romance as it is a thriller. I liked that time itself plays the role of a villain role in this series. The ending I thought was predictable but not disappointing. A good watch.
          18. Nna thaan case kodu: This is one of the funniest movies that I have seen in recent times. It is a satire and it is a court drama. The actors are brilliant, especially P.P.Kunhikrishnan. His dialogues and expression are funny. Wierdly, I can't remember much of the movie though it has only been a few weeks since I have watched the movie. That probably is a good thing. I can watch the movie again.
          19. Boy and the world: I picked this one randomly. It is an animation movie from Brazil and it has message about capitalism, environment and all. It also tries to drive in the point as it speaks through the eye of a child. I am getting a little tired of the movies with such messages as they don't seem to change much in us humans. I have become (or always was) cynical and I think so have many people around the world. That said, the movie is good on the eyes. Its imaginative and colourful. The animation is interesting too. I will not watch this movie again but am glad I did.
          20. Falimy: Another true entertainer from the Malayalam film world. This is not funny from the beginning to end. The story is not a happy one but the premise is amusing and some of the incidents are really amusing too. Basil's timing is perfect. Of course, Manju Pillai and Jagadesh are legendary. A good watch. I think I will probably revisit it some time in the future. Ehh... Maybe not. Too many movie to watch can't afford to rewatch movies unless there is a strong familial reason to do so.
          PS: I have given up on Superman and Lois. I will not go back to that series.

          Thursday, March 28, 2024

          Under the blue sky

          "The sky is so high". 
          "You do realize that there is no sky."
          "Of course, there is! Look up! Can't you see it? The blue cover with the white clouds."
          "Like cotton candies floating on a blue sea?"
          "Not bad! You have turned into a poet."
          "This is not poetry. It is just me trying to imitate you."
          "In a way, you are."
          "You are what?"
          "An imitation of mine."
          "Sheesh! Now way! I was mocking you."
          "Me! I have never uttered those words."
          "But you have said similar words. I was only imitating you."
          "That's what I said. You are my imitation."
          "No, no! Don't act dumb. My imitating you once does not make me your imitation."
          "Well! That's a start. The many always starts with one."
          "That's logical. Now you are trying to imitate me"
          "I am logical too. What makes you think that poetry does not posses logic?"
          "If its logical then its prose, not poetry."
          "Hmmm, you are right. You are not my imitation and never will be."
          "See!"
          "But the sky looks beautiful."
          "You do realize that the sky does not exist right?"
          "It definitely does! Look up!"
          "The blueness is caused by scattering of light by the small particles at the edge of the atmosphere..."
          "Don't talk rot man. Just look up. Does it look like it does not exist?"
          "What are you talking? I can't believe the two of us exist together."
          "You see, everything is not logical or scientific. It is not always what others say. Sometimes, somethings exist when we think they exist. I think the sky exists and so it does. All this scattering and light does not matter."
          "So tell me what happens in the night?"
          "The sky exists in the night."
          "But what happens to the blueness?"
          "It is replaced with black."
          ".., and what about the stars and the moon?"
          "They are just patterns in the black hood that covers the sky. Or maybe they are just tears in the blanket that the sky uses to cover itself."
          "Good heavens! That is some imagination. Don't you get it, that's space."
          "Oh, is it? So, the sky does not exist but space exists is it?"
          "Space is everything that is beyond earth."
          "Ah! When you say something exists it does, but not when I say so. Space means emptiness; something that is unoccupied. That nothingness exists but my blue sky with clouds does not, is it?"
          "You don't understand. The blue sky is a play of light."
          "Does light exist?"
          "Yes, it does."
          "So, how come 'the play of light' does not exist?"
          "Play of light is only light."
          "Which means that it exists too!"
          "Well it is not like that."
          "How do you know how a thing exists?"
          "Well, you see the thing and realize that the thing exists."
          "I see the blue sky and it exists."
          "But if there is a thing, it obstructs you. The blue sky does not obstruct you."
          "Well, water does not obstruct you."
          "But it does. You can feel it."
          "What about air and all those oxygens and nitrogens in it?"
          "I mean its different. It is not the same as the blue sky."
          "Ah! You are no longer able to explain right? I am now embarrassed to be you."
          "You are not me. I am I and you are definitely not me."
          "Not for each other but to the external world we are the same."
          "I don't care about the external world."
          "The one in which the blue sky does not exist?"
          "Will you drop the blue sky. Please!"
          "I can't. You want to know why?"
          "No."
          "I will say anyway. You said that the blue sky is not a thing and so I cannot drop it."
          "You and I are definitely not the same."
          "Buddy, being you is a bigger insult for me than you."
          "What does that even mean! How can you be me?"
          "Not for me or you but for everyone else, we are the same."
          "Whenever anyone looks at me, they only see me and not you."
          "Says you and no one else."
          "Well! You are the one with the blue sky business. I am a person of science, a rational being."
          "Ah! A man of science is it? What about all those times when you cry out to god for help?"
          "I am only human. When the going gets tough, its tough for my thoughts not to go to god."
          "Rational?"
          "Yes. I have the humility and the justification for my irrationality. That makes me rational. No blue sky business for me."
          "Ah! You are back to blue sky business is it? Tell me, why is the sky blue?"
          "I have told you already. Light gets scattered by the small particles at the higher layers of the atmosphere."
          "In that case, the higher layers of the atmosphere is blue and that is the blue sky."
          "No. Top layer of atmosphere is not blue."
          "Why is that leaf green?"
          "It reflects the green part of the light."
          "Same logic."
          "No! Please be logical. Be rational."
          "Listen, there is nothing rational about our lives. There is nothing logical about you or me. So stop arguing and let us be, do and think what we want. You are in no position to correct me for you too know so little about anything. You are welcome to think that you are right but you have no right to say I am wrong. We really don't know if you and I exists. So don't waste anyone's time with your rights and wrongs."

          Wednesday, March 27, 2024

          A forgotten man narrates

          As soon as he saw me, he asked the dreaded question. "Do you remember me?" I responded with the truth "Yes." He did not stop but went on to ask the dreaded followup question. "In that case, tell me my name." Once again, I decided to say the truth "I remember you but not your name." I thought it was a fair response and he seemed satisfied by it too. He said "Aaaaah! That's what I thought." He went on to say his name. I remembered him. His name pops up regularly in the conversations that I have had with my relatives. At those times, I only remembered his name but not his physical self. When I saw him, I was able to identify that I had seen him a number of times. But, my mind simply did not have the connection between his name and him. So, it ended up embarrassing me. I am never good with names anyway. During the last year of my school teaching career, I spent three months in a class without remembering the name of half of the class. That proved to me that names are overrated.

          I have the feeling that people only ask the question "Do you remember me?" when they are sure the other person does not remember the 'me'. One has to be a psycho to remember every person that he or she has met during his or her lifetime. Even if I am a psycho, I am certainly not that kind of psycho. I belong to the other end of the spectrum. I am constantly trying to forget the people whom I don't have to remember. The word networking only brings cables and electronic boxes to my mind, not people.

          He liked to talk and so continued talking to no one in particular. Fortunately for me, my two aunts liked listening to his story. Frankly, I enjoyed listening to it too but I could have lived without them. He talked about this and that before landing on a story that involved his wife. Men of that age and possibly every age invariably narrated stories that portrayed their wives in a comic strain. I will now try and reproduce the incident as he narrated it.

          My wife was sitting with her cousins and discussing family politics. Suddenly, she lost her conciousness and fell off the chair. I ran towards her and tried calling out her name. Obviously, she did not respond to it. Someone opened a bottle of water and sprinkled some water on her face. That proved effective. Slowly, she opened her eyes and looked at us in confusion. She asked the question that a million heroines have asked "Where am I?" One of her worried cousins responded "You are at Devu's house". She said "Oh!" and closed her eyes again. The person who had sprinkled the water earlier, sprinkled water on her face again. She opened her eyes and said "Stop it! I am alright now. As such there is a water shortage, don't waste water." She attempted to sit up but another cousin stopped her by saying "No! Don't! I have called the ambulance. You should go to the hospital." My wife protested. I joined the protest too but everyone present shushed us. One of them even went on to say "Careful! It might be brain hemorrhage. It might get worse if you move. We have to get you to the hospital by the time the golden hour ends." At first, I wanted to laugh and then I started wondering if it could actually be a hemorrhage. Before she could protest, the ambulance arrived and two persons rushed in with a stretcher. They placed it next to my wife, picked her up and placed her on it. All this happened in a short time and before I realized it, I was sitting inside a speeding ambulance besides my wife who was lying on a stretcher. I tried to talk to the attenders in the ambulance but they seemed too occupied to listen to my words.

          At the hospital, my wife was taken to the emergency room. The doctor asked "What happened?" I said "My wife fainted."
          "Did she fall?"
          "Yes. From a chair."
          "Did her head hit the ground?"
          "No."
          "Are you sure?"
          "Yes."
          "Did she have lunch?"
          "Yes."
          "Was there a problem with her speech before she fainted?"
          "No. She was talking well with her cousins."
          "How was she when she woke up?"
          "She was tired."
          "Her speech?"
          "It was fine. She was about to get up when ..."
          "Wait! Let me check her."

          The doctor checked her with a few instruments. Soon, he turned to me and said "Looks like her BP went high." She looked at the doctor and me sheepishly and said "I forgot to take the medicine this morning." The doctor looked at her with a grave expression and said "That is not good. You should have your medicines on time. Never forget it." She said "Yes doctor. I alway have it. Only this morning I forgot and then I was standing in the sun at the temple the whole morning. So..." The doctor interrupted her. "You should take care of your health. Health is important." I pitched in by saying "Yes, yes. Health is important." I turned towards the doctor and said "So, can we leave now?" The doctor seemed shocked by my statement. He said "No, no. We have to run some tests. Blood test, MRI and so on. We have to make sure that there are no other issues. At this age, you should be careful. You have to wait." 

          I realized that the doctor will not let us out for the next few hours. Worse, I will end up losing a few thousands unnecessarily. I took out my mobile and called our doctor who works in the same hospital. As soon as he picked the call, I informed him about everything that happened during the past two hours. The doctor listened to me patiently and said "Oh! That is all is it? She can go home. You can come back tomorrow and meet me. Give the phone to the duty doctor. I will inform." I gave the phone to the duty doctor who looked at me suspiciously. He explained the incidents that happened from the time my wife arrived at the hospital. For a few minutes after that, he only said "Hmmm", "Ah", "Yes" and "No".  Finally, he gave me back the phone and said "I will prepare the discharge summary. You can leave after that." I smiled and said "Thank you doctor."

          Thanks to our doctor, I saved a lot of time and money.

          Everyone listening to the narration laughed and nodded in agreement.