Forbidden thoughts

It's a thought; just a thought

Loaded with dangers

Some visible 

While others working quietly 

In the insides

A part of me eggs me on

"Come on! You deserve it.

Having lived a life devoid of it,

Grab the opportunity now.

Don't think about the world.

Opportunity does not knock twice,

So be wise and let those dreams come true."

A different voice, a mellow voice counters,

"Don't expose yourself.

You never have done so.

Everything you have achieved

Is a result of your being rational.

Keep your mind, the other one, under control.

Do what I say 

For I know what's right

Don't stroll into dangers.

Don't tread that path."

"Bah! Banish those goody two shoes.

He has led you to everything

And yet...

And yet, isn't there is a hole within you?

Leaking it all out of you

Making nothing out of everything.

Rational cannot be the rationale

Have some sense

Don't let nonsense pervade through you.

Just go for it."

Closing my ears, I screamed "Stop".

Closing my eyes, I said 

"I shall take life as it comes.

Neither shall I go towards nor away from it.

Neither shall I force nor be averse of it.

Neither shall I desire nor avoid it.

Neither shall I make a fool nor a saint of me.

I will always be like I have always been.

When the moment comes...

If the moment comes...

I shall do what I feel is right.

So, say no more."

Closing my mouth, I said no more.

And yet, I heard a voice whisper "Bravo!"